Complicated: A Tainted Love Novella by Ghiselle St. James

Author:Ghiselle St. James [James, Ghiselle St.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Tainted Love
Amazon: B00V2WSHIW
Published: 2015-04-25T05:00:00+00:00

At the hospital, Delilah is unusually quiet, but considering what she’s been through, I can’t imagine what’s going through her head. It’s so hard for me to look at her and not see a survivor. All her life, that’s all she’s been – a victim on one end, a survivor on the other. That’s why she took control of everything the way she did, never wanting to give up any kind of it for fears she might lose herself, lose her strength and become victimized all over again. She didn’t want to get raped by anyone ever again, so she spread herself wide. She didn’t want to feel like she was always looking over her shoulder, so she ran and kept on running. She’s been hurt by so many people, it’s a wonder she has the strength to go on.

Her bruises are testament that she survived, that she didn’t allow what they did to her to defeat her. Delilah is a fighter and I look up to her so much for always fighting through the crap to keep her neck above water.

As I whisper to her now, our tears flow. She says she feels weak, but I assure her that she’s not. Who survives their attacker twice and lives to tell the tale? She defended herself against a two men who could have and possibly would have killed her. The inner-resilience that takes, not many women have it. That tenacity that she uses as a cover is no more a cover than the thin material of her hospital gown. Her strength, resilience and tenacity are all a part of her. It is embedded in her veins.

“Do you know how brave you are, Lilah?” I whisper to her as I stroke her knotted hair. I’m sure Ben is going to want to know about her ethnicity now with her roots showing. She hasn’t told him much about anything and I’m surprised and relieved that he is still around in spite of this fact.

He hasn’t left her side much, and even though he is still in the room with us, he’s allowing us a sort-of-private moment. I know he’s probably upset that she keeps shutting him out, but he just needs to stick around. I hate that she’s pushing him away, but if he sticks it out, I know she will eventually talk. She always does this when someone comes along who could break down every single one of her constructed walls. There has only ever been one other person who has done that, but Jared died before he could tear them down completely. He was dominant, much like I sense that of Ben.

She has never been accepting of rules and control, but these two men…I don’t know what they did, but she flourished under their dominance. I just hope she lets go of the past and allows Ben to take care of her, because he loves her. I see it in the way he looks at her, and I saw it in the way her kidnapping almost ruined him.

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